In January 2019, I wrote my first blog post titled "Ego" on my original blog site, and in September 2019, I wrote a blog titled "Being Authentically Whole." It's interesting to read through old writings. It gives an insight into where a person's thought process was at, and hopefully, there is a difference because that means that there has been growth. As I review my old blogs, some I revise and rerelease, and some I find so out of the box that I don't even know what I was attempting to say when I wrote them, so I skip them, forever leaving them to the archives of history. When I read "Being Authentically Whole," I realized that a revision would not happen, yet the title and concept are worth rewriting. This blog is a rewriting of the concept of Authenticity.
What does it mean to be authentic? Well, after six years of a self-discovery journey and much healing, I will do my best to describe what I found authenticity to be as clearly as I can. First and most importantly, there is no authenticity without a healthy connection to our inner child. It is our inner child that experiences the world most authentically. Our inner child is free of judgments and rules of how to be, which leaves us just being and experiencing. Without that healthy connection, we act out layers of judgments on how we think we are "supposed" to be.
Authenticity is a way of being that can show up when no one is watching or how we express ourselves when we feel free of judgment. There is certainly plenty of judgment projected into the world that can frighten our Authenticity from expressing itself; however, no source of judgment is as important to address as the judgment we project from our thinking mind onto ourselves. It is ultimately our own judgment that keeps our authentic self prisoner.
It's the kind of judgment that keeps us from dancing in front of people because of the fear our mind projects. What will people think? When in reality, it's all about what we think other people will think about us. So, we hid our authentic selves behind an egoic mask designed to keep us safe and looking good. This mental process slowly starves our inner child of experience and of expressing itself, and it is our inner child that breathes life into our vessel. You will notice that regardless of age, those who seem to carry the most life in them have a healthy connection to their inner child. They may even seem childlike on the surface because they freely express their childlike joy.
Another cage constructed for our authentic self is the cage of trauma—moments in time when we were not allowed to be ourselves and felt unsafe. When unhealed, those moments root into our unconscious minds like a prison guard, and moment upon moment, guard after guard is created to keep us "safe." The issue is that these "guards" will forever remain at their post until the emotions associated with the emotional hurt are processed and we can consciously recognize we are no longer in that unsafe moment.
Sometimes, this means breaking patterns and or changing our environment.
Although our authenticity can be dimmed, hidden, and deeply frightened, it can never be destroyed or permanently damaged. Because our authenticity is eternal, unlike the stories we create about our experiences. Our authenticity is the pureness we are all born with, the spark that is the energy of life, the free-flowing awareness that is always there to be discovered and rediscovered. And even for those who live their lives caging their authentic self, all is released when we reach the boundary of death because when the physical body is no more, neither is the psychological cage in which our authentic nature was imprisoned. And once more, we are free like the energy once in a battery powering your favorite toy.
When the Toy "dies" or as we say, when the batteries "die" the energy that once powered the toy is not distroyed at all, it has merely transferred its place. Similarly, when our body dies, the life energy that is our true self does not die with it; it is merely experiencing itself outside of the body it once powered.
So you see, there is no death for our true, authentic self. Only temporary cages constructed within our minds can limit or prevent its expression. Sooner or later, we will all be freed. The question is: Will you wait until your body stops working to experience freedom, or will you dismantle the cage of judgments so that your authentic self can experience itself with a body?
This is the process we call healing <3.
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